My name is Jessica Lynn DePaso and I am 16. I have been depressed ever since I can remember. I have indulged in the act of self harm, and attempted suicide. But that's the thing. I have. I will always be known as a "cutter", or a “psycho”, but, I am ok with that. All that matters is that I know I am trying to beat this demon inside of me, and I know I can defeat this dark, sick, twisted side of me. Sadly, it is just going to take a long time. I know I can do it though, I mean, I have to, people want me to be happy, so if it a makes them happy to see me happy, then so be it. If you didn't know, the only reason I stay alive on this fucked up place we call "earth" is because I feel the need to help others with their problems, even though I can’t figure out my own. I love seeing a smile on another person’s face, no matter how much I am hurting inside, it makes me happy to see another person happy. Honestly, I would do anything, for anyone, if it were to make them happy, even if I didn’t know them. Helping others, just, helps me ignore the life I want to love, but can’t find a reason to. If you read this and you are feeling the same thoughts, and or commit the same actions as I do, I just want you to know something. One, rescue is possible. Two, you are not alone.
